“I am a senior Mathematics Major from Sacramento California. On campus I love to play intramural sports, be involved with Core Christian Fellowship, root for my Broncos at any sport, read poetry at open mic nights, relax in the sunshine with friends, and go to any event that offers free food.” -Mark Rogers
Hey, how are you doing?
I’m good, I’m good, I’m fine
Whatcha up to?
I’m playing Frisbee in February sunshine
We’re watchin TV, swappin cds
Studying together, discussing the weather, ragging on bad professors
We’re talking about last weeks rager, or stalking the hot next door neighbor
through the window
Or there is the alcohologic cycle, like the hydrologic cycle, but for kids at college
Going round and round the perpetual partying process
It goes that Monday & Tuesday chillin’ in the ocean
Awaiting Wednesday nights coming commotion
Wednesday evaporates into another state of mind
Thursday condensation in anticipation for weekend fun
Friday Night is here, with plenty of beer, and down the rain comes
The reigning beer pong champ, shot sunk!
The rain of tears from the emotional drunk
Sunday is homework
Monday is back to the ocean of “Oh Sh…” time to repeat the cycle again
So there’s all this stuff, much of it fine and fun, but for me it’s not enough
I feel stuck…
In the shallow end of this pool of life
We’re kids playing, getting wet, jumping off the little step
But I don’t think I’m alone when I wonder, what’s deeper? In that deep end?
Staying in the shallow end makes sense; it’s the safe zone
But in the deep end there’s so much more in every person to be known
There’s so much depth to every person
What are your joys & sorrows?
What’s your hearts desire? What sets you on fire?
What are your fears for tomorrow?
What’s holding us back?
Maybe we have sarcastic floaties, that won’t let us dive deep because jokes are comfortable and they aren’t serious…or are they?
Maybe we’ve made the media our Mommy
She says stay shallow, it’s safe.
She says it’s all about how you appear, your popularity with your peers. Don’t go to the deep end that’s off-limits”
Well I’m not gonna listen, I’m swimming on a mission
to the deep end.
So, how are you really doing?
Last year I had a gnarly black eye, everyone stopped as I passed by
They stopped and asked, why? What happened? Are you fine?
5,10, 20, people a day, would STOP.
and say, Mark are you okay?
I’d say I’m good, it doesn’t hurt, but thank you so much for your concern
Their love and compassion lifted my spirit, but it made me wonder
If we saw the black eyes & bruises on people’s hearts, would we act more loving to one another?
If we saw bruises on our friends heart, past the smiling façade
I think we’d realize that very often our hearts hurt a lot
Let’s adjust our focus, zoom in past appearance
Then maybe we’d notice our friends heart and their spirit
Jesus taught about the Good Samaritan who stopped, when everyone passed by
The hurting man on the side of the road, alone, left to die
So will we notice? Will we stop?
And say how are you really doing?
Cuz sometimes I’m fine
But sometimes I find that I am that man on the side of the road dying inside
Sometimes in class it’s hard to focus, because inside my heart is broken
Concerned for my family, missing a girl, or just angry at injustice in this world
At times I feel doubtful, hurt, and lonely
I just want a friend to care for and know me
Our culture creates superficial emphasis on external things we “need”
But I deeply hunger for honesty and authenticity
When I look at Jesus, he exemplifies being real & deep.
He’d discern humility from pride, truth from a lie, and see inside the heart so people have nothing to hide
Jesus reminds us it’s not how we appear but the heart that matters
Lets try to know one another deeper and start a new pattern
Ya I know we’re all busy, & have lots of things to do
But how bout just once a day, let’s stop and ask truly, how are you?
Cuz being real about how we’re feeling is the first step toward healing
So let’s open up to a friend and stop needing to pretend
Jesus commanded us to love one another as he first loved us
And he cared for the heart, so let’s do our part & start